There is a Struggle Even in Dreams

There is a Struggle Even in Dreams


That's my line actually - सपनो में भी संघर्ष है।

Midlife is generally termed between the ages 40 and 50, but I feel that it is somewhere between the age 25 to 35. That's the phase most people learn about falling, climbing, reaching a certain height, and stabilizing. This blog is about myself and those who feel the same way I do. It's about dreams. I am not sure if I have any.

I had financial problems during my graduation period and was helped by many individuals to reach where I am today.

From doing engineering away from my hometown -
to do freelancing during graduation in placements time,
to doing a full-time night shift job in my last semester,
to work at low pay in one of the most crowdest cities in my country,
to losing one of my parents during COVID-19,
to be able to buy our house,
to reconstruct the entire house with a home loan,

I have forgotten what happiness is. Leave apart the outer happiness, I don't even know if there is any left inside. There is a struggle even in dreams.

There's a lot to learn and a lot to do. The most important of those is to figure out what you are doing for yourself. I am yet to figure out the same. That's what is called a purpose. A purpose not to find but to create. Indeed a hard task, but not the impossible one.

Here are few lines I wrote back in 2019 -

समय के इन अंतराल में अब न कोई हर्ष है! बाहरी दुनिया तो दूर, अब तोह सपनो में भी संघर्ष है! !

गर्मियों के आने पर, किशोर क्रिकेट खेला करते है! आनंद क्या है भूलकर हम सिर्फ कर्म किया करते है! !

घर परिवार से मिलो दूर, महीनों-सालो भर रहते है! माँ-पापा की खुशी के लिए, कुछ दुख हम भी सहते है! !

लक्ष्य के पथ पर बिछे कांटे भी अब तो उत्कर्ष है! किसी दिन नींद आ जाये, तो वहां भी सपनो में संघर्ष है! !

Thanks for reading! 😉